Tuesday 10 September 2013

Dear Blog

Assalamualaikum

malu nak mulakan, tapi..
mulakan je la yer dak!

ok its my birthday last week

YEY!
and HELL NO!

im celebrating my 20th birthday
im old...

gosh
wrinkles...
there it is.. me.. for another 100 years.

as NO BODY know its his birthday too..
so i plan a prank with his friends 2 weeks before the date
everything is perfectly ready..
oleh sebab excited, aku beli present die 1 month early..
bahahah.... sengal x?!
everybody gives full support for it..

the reason is im scared if he gets to prank me first.
hahaha..tapi aku je perasan lebyh !


 so,were eating.

The cakes
aku buat sendiri tgh haritu..
sbb busy sgt orentasi..
thats y kek xjadi lgsg..
tapi org ckp sedap.. 
bahahhaa.. sengal!

Pizza
jasrul pegi bp kol 10
pecut dalam jem..
naseb bek smpai!

AKSI SUAP MENYUAP

secare tak sengaje..
bufday boy n me
terpkai bju matching!
tak janji ok..
lgsg tak..

he looks really tired..
npk sgt die betol2 usehe utk kali ni
he put all his effort to the performence
im proud of him !
^_^

TAHNIAH AWAK~

ok back to the story.
actually aku dah siap beli tepung 2 paket
nak tepung tawar shez
tapi npknyer 
PAPA MUZAKKIR tak bagi..
jadi kitorg pon tinggalkan la tepung tu 
belakang tiang besar pentas terbuke tu

kesinambungan niat jahat aku tadi,
aku geram je xdpt tepung si budak gemok ni!
so, dengan ikhlas hati aku msok bilik gerakkan MHS 

amik2 gambar family


akhirnyer..
segalanya bertukar tragedi

mercun pop
air oren 
COOL ~

choi sgt!!!


semalam budak2 kelas belanje KFC
ok... dh!
1snack plate 2nasi ayam
mkan sorg!

hadiah budak gemok tu...
tak bagi lagi..
engat nk buat surprise berperingkat
the last one is nk bagi present yg aku beli..
tapi he didnt seem to reply me that day..
the next day, ibu suroh bawak present tu hari2.
smpai jumpe die..
so, aku pon dgr ckp ibu..
hari2 aku tnyer die free ke x..
but he seem so busy..
hari2 ibu tnye dh bagi ke belum..
aku smpai tataw nk ckp ape..
*kan dah berair mate ni*
*npe tetiber sebak je weyh! *
xsuke2!


ok tu saje..
lepas ni nak masuk perwira pulak..
choi
tu cerite die mmg choi!
aku cube lawan takdir..
tapi.
fate is fate..
its killing me!

                                                                                                                       till next time......


Sunday 1 September 2013

Tragedi 1 SYAWAL

Assalamualaikum...
hi readers !
sudah sekian lama baru sempat nak ucap kan..
maaf zahir dan batin juga..
*banyak dosa dengan manusia*

so.. raya pertama tahun ni tak bes sgt..
belum2 dah demam
perh ! gile terok.
siap migrain bgai.

tapi gamat sbb kazen kazen tahun ni sume balik raya..
buat bbq segala

giler cool.!
jarang kitorg bond mcm ni =)

malangnya tragedi yang menimpa aku menjadikan raya tahun ni sebak skit la..
kisah demam aku tak berakhir disitu..

JENG! JENG! JENG!


aku suspek ASTHMA
wow !
say what?!
kebetulan pegi klinik tu mmg DR hospital pantai..
at last..everything terjawab
ribcage cramp. cepat penat . batuk. sesak nafas

so there u go.. 
DR tu kate xboleh active, xboleh sports terok2, tak boleh penat2 sgt
die bagi ubat asthma yang makan seumur hidup tu..
aku wt lek je mkn sekali 
bahahahhaha..
*since than, aku nak masuk explorace pon ibu tak bagi*
why is she so worried?
lek2 dah la..

tapi hari tu TOT MHS aku bedal semcm je 
explorace
mencari sesuap nasi
sume men lari2..

balik tu.. tanggung r menggah die =D

doakan lah aku baik2 saje ye 
TAK SUKE LA SAKIT NI ^_^

to be continued...

Friday 26 July 2013

Selamat Berpuase


Assalamualaikum sume!

sebelum tu nak ucap 

Buat sendiri tu...
heheh *_*

many things happen actually
gantung tidak bertali aku kali ni

let say i have no one to share with
i mean someone that understand
listen to story without giving comment

RESULT IS OUT !
giler kentang!
drop sgt2.. 
tapi alhamdulilah masih 3 lebih..
heheheh
syukur~~

ok~
sekarang aku tengah berkecimpung dalam 
 JEMPUT DATANG !

banyak lagi event yang mendatang..
tapi yang ni dasyat skit..
byk drama..banyak emosi
tension sangat2
kene tindas 
tapi ni sume dugaan dari Allah.
aku redha~

MINGGU HALUAN SISWA

this is my FAV part..
jadi faci~  hehehe
excited giler
dulu aku kene buli now BULI BALIK~!
as usual, the last day if MHS is my BIRTHDAY ~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ^_^

P/S: its his birthday too.. it have been along time since the last time i contacted him
i bet he didnt even miss me 


HERE COMES MY MOMS PART

ibu cakap: " as a mother, ibu rase ibu tahu kenape mak die buat mcm tu. sebab he's the only boy and mak die nak die duduk dekat kalau boleh. ibu faham sebab awk pon sorg kn??"

she keep bring him up in a topic
die xcontact awak ke?
xdew msg awk kat FB?
xdew itu.. xdew ini?
what wrong with her? 

ok~~ she just wouldnt stop...

***

ok so thats the story~ 
see u in a bit.

to be continued...

Saturday 22 June 2013

MY LIFE , LOVE & EVERYTHING

~ASSALAMUALAIKUM~



Dear diary,
Today I will tell you the truth things happen in the past few months
its like my life is in a movie or something..

Except my guy is not the owner of this country 
=P

***

so just that you know,
im just like other girls
get hurt by love....

u see.. this is me..
at the very beginning
very poised & cute

this is me before i enter uthm..
which where i study
and where everything started


Taking bachelor  of mechanical engineering  

this is not a story that i made up..
its a true story..
i cant believe that its real
untill i feel it myself
That is deeply in love

after very hard praying to God 
wanting to meet my JODOH
even if just a second
i wanna meet him
i want to know that he's the ONE
(my cute cuddle voice) 
which is quite stupid wishes..
but there we go



ONE miserable most pathetic DAY,
Allah granted my wish
I meet a man at the end of a junction
Giggles at me because I spilled my drink on my shirt TQ
The wind blows~~
And I was like, 
is this fate? its like a movie.
It's perfect.. 
how can it get worse than that..

OWH
Unfortunately it just got worse.
He joins the robotics club just like me
And accidently he remembered me
saying " Hey, kau yang tadi tu tertumpah air kan? "
OMG!
That time I'm feeling like I just got hit by a ball!
Great huh.!
And he introduces himself.
Ok..
things settle there

***

WAIT!!

 its not the end yet. but its just the beginning
this where the story started

i STALKED him on facebook.
(OMG! im a stalker)

i found his facebook!
Glad he introduces himself so I know his name
(YEY! how happy is that)

we walk together
we talked together
we eat together

(I had this feeling that he HIT on me)
but how could that possibly be
he's good looking
he must have a girl back then

U CANT REALLY TRUST BOYS THESE DAYS

ONE EXCUISITE DAY,
we were texting,
its a convocation week.

so, lots of flowers
Teddy bears

Well I wanted those ..
So I was joking with him I want a fresh red rose
just one 

not a bouque of roses 
but instead he told me that he's going to buy me
so, i agree.(i was just joking).

and u know what i get?
a convocation flower with a teddy at the middle
that time i feel like fainting
Crazy huh?!
i remember he says 
" awak tak pernah rase convo kan? nah.. tahniah! "
(aku sumpah nak pitam)

ok so..
weeks after that,
He confesses (when we were on the phone)
but i want him to do it face to face
so, we went jogging 
(he was very shy. i can even see him blushing >_<)

Things fall perfectly in place
a bit up and down
 but everything so perfect

my friend says he's a perfect guy
kind

cute
superb caring 



superb love me
(im not exaggerating) 

for once aku rase tak layak dapat lelaki mcm ni
he's too humble
manje..
Superbly romantic
He's like my puzzle to me
(You know, when he the missing piece of my puzzle. Fit perfectly)

Always cry when I remember it..
he's the male version of me
same crazy!
but just bit like MOM
Seriously..
(he got like my moms nagging part and caring part)
(Sometimes I feel like die tersalah masuk perut)

here the picture i steal/take/borrow
(Whatever you wanna call it)

YOU ARE MY MAN
(u just got to be a bit stronger)

 its him when we go to our first TASHA MASAHAR concert in UTHM

our first french fries decoration
(it was fun back then)  

OUR FAV BALCONY
(We can see lots of great things there)
 i took this picture. this is when he was mad coz someone just called me and on call for a few minutes in the middle of the night.
(He didn't know that I force that guy(my buddies) to call me to see if he's jealous or not)
It's all planned out


BREAKFAST TIME.
(its always this big for two people)

MCD BREAKFAST SET
25 JAM AZHAR CORNER
NASI ARAB
(he loves the honey dew juice. its a MUST for him)

MK BPMALL
(Love sees him eating with spoon and fork. He looks funny =P)

 OUR FAV PRATHA ICE CREAM
Gosh! u should try it
(Superb taste)

ELECTRONC DEVICE
i programmed it..
(Cute huh? )


 FIRST PICTURE
(Some say we look alike)
on our very first date..(mcm budak sekolah)
gosh...i always love this picture
FOREVER...

THIS IS MY TEDDY BEAR
i gave it to him
This is a bit sad story
When I gave him he says he's going to burn it
left it at the side of a road
gosh!!(i cry that night)
i just want it to be me..
always there to listen to him
be in his arm
all the time when im away..

ANOTHER FLOWER
he gave this to me went we go to the same camp together
it was perfectly red!
very2 beautiful (i love it!!!)
He left it on my backpack.. (<3 <3) 


 
In that camp there is this activity called kayaks
this is my friend not me coz no one is taking our picture that time
ok..so we did get on the same team..
and get into the same boat
So we both kayaking together around the lake 
i still remember he says 
"awk..kite teringat ibu ngan ayah.. diaorang pon pernah kayak cmni gak"
He sounds really wonderful
(i swear its in the middle of a race! How could he say that. I'm feeling overwhelmed)
( Its like we are in a Barbie of swan lake)
(aku nak terjun!!!!!!!)


Oh no...
I didn't jump!
its just me on the water confident session during that camp
and YES IM DROWNING
(But no one helps me)
im not pretending!!

when i was 7 i when to Gunung Ledang with my relative

I didn't know how to swim but I follow my niece jump into this one deep part
I'm drowning
for a few minutes...
then my cousins save me
I'm unconscious that time
  (i could really die)
I'm traumatized
till then i swear i would never swim

so back to the story..
the water confident session made me crazy!
but i try very hard..
untill i could !
I don't want to be hydrophobic
So I force myself that time to float myself

*coz i remember how much he loves the sea*

To see him there.. playing with fish..
i want to be the part of it..

ok...so this is the bottle from the camp
this is our last event together..so i keep the bottle..


 LENSA MALAYA
i bought that for him.i have one too.that time the SN academy singgah UTHM
so he's there.. all i wanted was a pair tee's
(klishay kan?)

he's learning GUITAR
He is learning me.. and I'm learning him to be better
he's the most charming
finding all reasons to spend time with me

IM4U wristband
(maybe some people might see i never let go of the bracelet. I always wear it even if I'm showering. its not because i wanted to show the world im the IM4U member.. But it's because everything that I keep have its own memory and i wear it so i dont lose it
i still remember he scold me so bad for the first time coz he's scared that I won't catch a bus that night
coz the IM4U program ends bit late. 
Then he apologized.. for the first time i feel protected and love
i want to bring it everywhere so that i can feel that he's with me
Protecting me all the time. =') 

This is when I wanted to Skype with him to see him do that
(RAMBUT BELAH TENGAH)
macam buah pear~~>^_^


THIS IS THE FIRST EVER GIFT
from him to me
it say IBAH KAWAII
kawaii~cute in Japan
and all those key chain
(Each has different stories)

NASI GORENG DAGING
(my fav menu)
he bought me this,that time i just went back from late night work at robotic lab
he's like my wife 
and he love sticking notes




This is sweet stories from my past
what he did to me was so ....
(ok...im totally speechless)

ONCE UPON A TIME..
we went to eat SUP KAMBING
On the way back I had migraines.
out of a sudden..its a rainy night
( but i always prepared for an umbrella)
Then we went back to the hostel by bus
(we have no transport that time)
when we arrived  as we were walking
i stop,
"OMG! my fav umbrella tertinggal dalam bus"
(urgh.. Its just an umbrella, what's the big deal)
(no its a big deal! How can I walk in the rain)
nevermind,..kne beli lepas ni..
went back and  slept on my study table

A few minutes later, my friend Najah..
she come by and gave me something
MY UMBRELLA
PLAIN WATER
PANADOL
(yes! he did!!!)
(i know, i couldnt believe it either..)
(its really hard to find that bus back)

Many things he has done for me 
im deeply in love with him
its like it only happen in a drama 
i could die!

and as usual,
in the drama unexpected things happen
(oh..correction)
The worse thing happens
hell !!
His mother has an old traditional style 
MATCH MAKING
and so,
I stupidly end up like all of those movies 
Leave him because of some sort called KEBERKATAN 
so, things went  very bad for a while
we break up
*do u realize broken heart picture is always like this*
(were actually keeping each others heart)

i started to become insane
i cant even study
i seriously love fails me this time

my mom and my dad
(This is the first time my family entrusts a guy to me)
(My dad never approves my bf except him)
its like he's the only exception..~~ ( bunyi lagu paramore)

ok back to the story
how do they react seeing their only daughter
being hurt. cry every single day
(u must be expecting a motivated family telling you,u shouldnt be in love while ur in collage and stuff. but mine... its not event closed to that)

Especially, my mom
gosh! she cried everyday..
(yes..its my mom)
untill my dad says, " hey! ni sape yang putus ni??)
she cried really hard
yes i mean like cry..cry..
She cried every time she saw me
(how motivated isnt it ~~ grumpy!! =_=)


and my dad
was very sad coz he really gain his trust
he always says. "budak tu tak matang, kalau die matang die tak bgtaw awak"
(owh...coz girls can be very emo at a time)
(did i tell u my mom went through just the same thing with my dad)
but they manage to get married
u wanna know why
He never tells her until they got married and finds out for herself
how cool is that
(my dad princip is jodoh urusan Allah manusie have no right)
(did i tell u how grumpy my late grandma could be)
things got better
My mom and dad now live happily ever after
(like in those fairy tale stories)


so there are a few last thing he gave to me

THE LAST BREAD 
he buys me this on our very last day
promise him to eat it...

THE LAST LETTER
(i know what are u thinking..how classy!!) 

he send me a letter with those word i broke up with him
i cried every single day after i got this letter
(pengsan jap~~)
he says that he's upset with me for breaking up
bende dah jadi..
aku anggap tak jodoh..
tu je

then one day ,
i got what so called petunjuk
saying this is the best thing
till then...
He's not gonna marry the matchmaking girl
(wow! but its too late)
But he got something else 
some sort of DONT MARRY ME
I'm a rotten brat
(sometimes this can be very confusing)

maybe all this is temporary
maybe its forever
u never know the future

some say if we try to be good
Changing attituted
he might be our future..
so i set up a list
i want to be as good as him.
and change for better

this is my goals in life..
weird huh..
but everyone should have it

so im working very hard to be the best for him.~~

(can u wait ?)

the last time i saw him he seems fine..
as usual in the library in his sweater
(i love his sweater.. He always covers me with his sweater if I fall asleep beside him after studying)
struggling hard for exams

i saw his post on twitter after knowing i wont stay at the sme hostel as he is
others are keep asking y not..?
im willing nak duduk dekat rumah sewa yang sangat jaoh..
bayar sewe sume..
crazy huh?
i got only one reason i left..
i dont want to torture him..
seeing me just make him suffer
let me suffer
but pls not him.
he suffers alot for me,
this is the only thing i could do...

i really2 miss him..
im glad he always happy
after all this while.
many of them ask,
"hey shez amcm? ok? sehat?"
i still be able to say 
" owh..ok..sehat jer =D"
(with a smile~~)



everything happens for a reason 
and we have to seek that reason..
its called WISDOM


till next time...